Grief Plus an FO and a WIP

Hi All!

I’ve been in a serious funk lately. It’s so weird to me that all of the family I physically grew up with are now gone. Grief comes in waves, ebbing and flowing, during this time of year and my mind has been full of memories and wishes for just one more moment of time with all of us together. My Mom (63) passed away in August 2014, my little sister Veronica (44) in October 2015 and my little brother Chuck (44) in June of this year. This is one of the last pictures that I have with all four of us together, taken in November of 2013.


Plus, I’ve lost three of my four fur babies in the last two years due to age related illnesses as well as several friends 😦 So, while I’ve been busy knitting and crocheting, I haven’t really had the urge to talk about it…plus, I’ve been jumping from project to project, kind of like my mind, and have only finished a few things. Here’s one of them…plus a WIP.

I present to you the Sockhead Hat III. Yes, this was my third time making it. I think I’ve said before that this project is something that may be constantly on my needles as it is the perfect take a long project and super easy to pick up and put down. It’s also easily customizable for different head sizes.

Hat number 3 was on my needles for a long time; however it’s so worth it. I used a skein of sock yarn that I received from my Yarnbox Sock Club and I highly recommend it for the softness and utter feeling of luxury while knitting with it. It’s made ofΒ 80% Wool – Merino andΒ 20% Manufactured Fibers – Nylon / Polyamide. It got even softer after blocking it. Here are the details.

Ravelled Here: Sockhead Slouch Hat III

Needles: US 3 (3.25 mm) 16 inch circulars / DPNs

Yarn: Forbidden Woolery Glutton Sock in the color Alchemy (used 70 grams)

Started / Finished: 9/26/16 – 7/18/17

Modifications: Cast on with 136 stitches.

I can’t wait to pop this on my head to keep warm this winter. Plus, how could you not love this delicious color?

In addition, I have started another one in Worsted Weight. I had purchased four skeins of Malabrigo Rios in the colorway Arco Iris and only two of the four matched. This skein was so different from the others that I knew I had to use it for something on its own.

To tell the truth, it should have been done by now because it is moving so fast. I’ve just been concentrating on other WIPs instead and this one sits in my SUV, waiting for me to go to the doctor or be a passenger πŸ™‚ But that’s okay. It’s not like I’m on a timeline for it and my knitting is not the boss of me. Here’s an In Progress pic. I’m just a little further along than this now and need to decide when I’m going to start the decreases to ensure I have enough yarn.


I hope things are good for you! I’ve got some exciting projects coming up and I can’t wait to tell you more about them. Until next time, Happy Knitting!


18 Comments Add yours

  1. Stefanie says:

    Hi Paula. I’m sorry it’s been tough for you with the losses of your beloved ones. Hugs.
    Your sockhead beanie is terrific. The color is bright and its variegation gives it visual interest. Malabrigo rocks. I may have that colorway somewhere.

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    1. Thank you Stefanie! Some days are better than others. Hugs back!

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  2. madgeface says:

    Oh, Paula – I’m so sorry for your losses. I’m thinking of you and sending lots of love. Grief does come in waves and I don’t think we’re ever really done with the grieving process, it just gets a little easier to move on from once you’ve done it so many times before with previous waves. I think (and hope) your knitting projects help; I know mine help me work through things. ❀

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    1. Thank you Mandy! Yes, we are never done with it; however I know it does get easier. What’s difficult for me is that every other month has another death anniversary and sometimes it just hits me like a tsunami. Knitting and crocheting definitely help! It’s like my Xanax πŸ™‚

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  3. I’m so sorry. I’ll be thinking about you.

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  4. salpal1 says:

    Wow, that is a rough time. I can only imagine how alone you must feel sometimes. I remember when my grandfather’s oldest friend passed away, and then his sister. He said to me “there is no one left who called me Johnny” which was his childhood nickname. What a feeling that must be. We aren’t your family but we are here, and are thinking about you.

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    1. Thank you so much! I do still have people that know my nickname from childhood and still use it πŸ™‚ However, I don’t have anyone that I physically grew up with anymore.

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  5. Sending you a big hug, Paula, and keeping you in my thoughts. What a time you’ve had — hope that beautiful knitting is bringing some comfort.

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    1. Thank you so much, Katherine! It definitely helps to take my mind off things πŸ™‚


  6. I’m thinking of you Paula – what an incredibly tough time you are going through. Much love.

    Your hats are beautiful – I am looking up that pattern!

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    1. Thank you so much, Kat! I’m working on some happy stuff now so it’s definitely putting a smile on my face πŸ™‚

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  7. Knit Potion says:

    Oh, Paula – my heart breaks for you. Life sure can be hard to understand sometimes. I’m so glad knitting has brought you some comfort. Thank you for posting to let us know what’s going on. It’s really good to hear from you. Sending lots of love your way.

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    1. Thank you so much, Melinda! It certainly is hard to understand sometimes. Big hugs.


  8. I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of all your family in such a short space of time. Having lost all of my family I know that I felt like an orphan the day after my mother passed. Although I’m married with children of my own, having that original family made things ‘fit’.

    Things do eventually improve and your mind takes it’s time to put things into some sort of order so that everything begins to make sense again.
    I shall be thinking of you.

    Love your sock hats. Beautifully knitted and they have the look of luxury about them.
    I like your blog too.
    Have a blessed rest of your day ~ Cobs. 🌷 🌷 🌷

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    1. Thank you so much for your thoughtful response, Cobs, and I’m sorry for your losses too. I am lucky that I do still have my half brother and Dad, plus my adoring husband. I’m hoping there will be no more losses for either of us for a long time to come.

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      1. I’m so glad to hear that you still have some family here with you.
        But you’ve been through a lot. Don’t expect too much of yourself, and don’t beat yourself up when your body doesn’t want to do things sometimes.
        Take it easy.
        Thinking of you and wishing better days for you.
        ~ Cobs. x

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