FO ~ Shell Stitch Baby Headbands

Hi All,

How many times can I start the beginning sentence for this blog? Apparently 20 times. Okay…enough of that. Let’s get on with it.

Baby Rainy is going to be one styling little chickadee when she is born. In addition to her Rainbow Honeycomb Blanket, she’s got some awesome new headbands to wear. The first headband I made for her was the Tulip Stitch Headband, which I blogged about last month. I wanted to create a couple more that had flowers attached and came upon this YouTube video for a Shell Stitch Baby Headband with Flower.

You know I immediately had to pull out my scrap yarn and crochet hooks to try this. There is no written pattern; however it’s easily pulled together just by watching the video. This makes it perfect for those that don’t know how to read a crochet pattern. I wish I could write it out for you; however the designer has it written out for sale in her Etsy store.

The first one I made, I measured until I had approximately 13.5 inches (leaving 1/2 inch for stretch factor) to fit a newborns 14 inch head. I decided to make it in all white, allowing it to go with multiple outfits. It used about 12 grams of the Caron Simply Soft Snow Sparkle yarn that I used to make Rainy’s blanket, along with a 3.75 mm (F) crochet hook.

The second one, I kept the white headband and made the flower red. I increased the size to 15 inches and decided to leave the ends hanging so Mama can tie them together and it will last longer. It used approximately 7 grams of Caron Simply Soft Snow Sparkle yarn for the headband part and 5 grams of Caron Simply Soft Harvest Red yarn for the flower.

They turned out super cute and Mama (and me) are excited to see them modeled on sweet Rainy’s head! Only 23 more days until her due date! (You can click on the images below to make them larger.)

Until next time, Happy Knitting (and Crochet)!

Dear Mom…I miss you…love you more

How can two years have already passed since you left this world? I still remember making that very difficult decision, to let you decide that you were ready to go. I wanted to try everything to save you; however you were so tired of being in pain and were ready to be with Grandma and all who have passed on before. I remember sitting with you in that hospice room, surrounded with love by family and last visits from friends. I remember telling you over and over that it was okay to let go and that I would be okay. I remember holding your hand with Ashley and counting down your breaths each minute. I remember losing it so very badly when you took your last breath and then telling you that I was not okay and wanted you back. I remember the support from family and friends as we laid you to rest. I remember having to get back to the business of living without you.

Even though it’s been two years, I still haven’t been able to watch the video of you telling me that you love me, over and over. I remember it being a game between us. Me: I love you. You: I love you too. Me: I love you more. You: No, I love you more. Me: I love you even more. You: I love you to the moon and back. It was our special way of saying hello and good-bye each time we were together.

So much has happened in that time and I still want to pick up the phone, send you a Card, visit with you and talk…laugh, cry…do the things we used to do. I see little messages from time to time and that comforts me. I love finding old cards and letters because they make me feel close to you. I still dream about you and am able to talk to you that way and send prayers to you in heaven. I know that you still watch over me, making sure I’m okay. And I want you to know that I am okay. I take things day by day and it gets easier with time. It’s special occasions that are the hardest. I dread Mother’s Day every year…I get so emotional. The day you passed, your birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas…all have emotional attachments that I am learning to live with and try to remember you with happy thoughts…always wishing you were still here.

So with that, I want you to know that I miss you, Mom! I love you more. I love you all the way to Heaven and know that you are saying it back to me. I love you to the moon and back.

Love You…Love You Too

I awoke on Sunday morning with 29 missed calls. 19 from my little sisters phone and 10 from numbers I didn’t recognize. I knew something bad had happened and didn’t want to face it. I got up at 5:50 am, fed my cat and dogs, made a pot of coffee and ate a banana. I settled down in my office chair and called my sister’s phone first, thinking that something had happened to one of my brothers or one of her kids. Instead, I got her daughter, my niece, Kayla who had the task of informing me that my sister had died in her sleep anywhere between 2-3 am.

My sister had texted me on Saturday and asked to borrow some money. Her last text to me was “Thanks sis. This should be the last time I need help. Love you.” I replied “Love you too.” Who knew that it really would be the last time she would ever need my help? I’m absolutely heartbroken.

We were mending our relationship due to stupid, idiotic stuff that some siblings go through. We were in the best place ever since we were kids and I moved away. I’m heartbroken for her four kids who have to now go through the grief we went through last year with my Mom: Ashley, Kayla, Danny and Charlie. I’m heartbroken for her grandchildren who she will not get to see grow up: Stacy, Xavier, Halo, Rhea and Athena. I’m heartbroken that she will never get to mend her relationship with my Dad, who loved her with all his heart. We all think we have time to heal wounds; but you never know when your time will come.

I’m heartbroken because things were looking up for her and she was in the happiest time of her life. She had finally found someone who treated her like a queen. She was about to get a settlement for pain and suffering and wanted to buy a house so she wouldn’t have to worry about where she was going live ever again. No more roaming and a safe haven for her and any of her kids / grandchildren who needed her help.

I am happy that she is no longer in pain. I’m happy that she gets to see my Mom, Grandma and all that have gone before us in heaven. I’m still absolutely heartbroken.

RIP Veronica Sue Bryant Lyons Hackney (11/4/1970-10/25/2015) Fly high little sister. You will always be loved and missed. We now have another angel watching over us and I’m still absolutely heartbroken.

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The last picture I have of the two of us together at my Mom’s funeral in August 2014.

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One of the last pics of us with our Mom.

Kayla, Charlie, Veronica, Danny, Ashley

Kayla, Charlie, Veronica, Danny, Ashley…she loved these kids with all her heart.

Dear Mom – RIP

Dear Mom,

I can’t believe it has been one year since you passed away. I’ve been through all the stages of grief and find myself going back and forth between some of them. It’s gotten a little easier; however, I miss you like crazy. I still cry, but I also laugh when I think about you and remember the good times. I want to call you and tell you about things that are happening in my life. I want to visit you and give you hugs and kisses. I want to knit you scarves and blankets to keep you warm. I know that you are looking down and watching over us. I’m also sure you know all these things; however, it’s so hard not having you here physically.

There have been many first anniversaries during this time. Your first birthday in heaven (I still have your card and present), my annual visit to Indiana for Thanksgiving, the joy of finding or making special Christmas presents for you, ringing in the New Year and making that call every year, the first Mother’s Day without you – oh, that was so very hard, getting a card from you on my birthday…everything. And now it is the first anniversary of you being gone.

I still haven’t been able to watch the video of you that I took where you tell me you love me over and over again. I hope that I’ll be able to soon. Right now, just thinking about it makes me cry. I hope you are happy being with Grandma, Grandpa, your sister and brother who passed before their time, as well as a myriad of other relatives I’m sure you were overjoyed to see again. Maybe you are throwing a little party to celebrate. I like to think you are. I can’t wait to see you again and until then, just know that I love you to the moon and back. Big kisses and hugs!

From 8/10/2014

Around 2:25am, my Mom passed very peacefully and now is in heaven, rejoicing from being no longer in pain. She loved to laugh, tease, and was such a joy in my life, as well as to anyone who met her. Intellectually, I know that she is in a much better place and I am so happy that she is finally at peace. Emotionally, my heart is breaking. My cousin told me that the moment she passed, the skies opened up and poured rain for a few moments. Heaven welcomed another angel today. Sandra Louise Asher Bryant Brandt, 10-19-1950 – 8-10-2014. RIP to the most beautiful woman in the world. You will be missed forever.

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