Once Upon a Sock: July Edition

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Hi All!

I swear my blog is becoming only about the socks lately. I promise, I have been super busy crocheting and knitting…you can check out my Ravelry projects page if you want a preview. My last 8 finished projects are for Baby Rainbow and I’ve only blogged about 2 of them. I haven’t wanted to share everything because I want it to be a surprise for the new Mama. The package was delivered to my cousins house on Monday, so hopefully the family will visit soon. Then you’ll be sick of the blog posts…LOL

So, my socks. I was hoping to finish by this months post and it didn’t happen. I did get 15 more rows per sock (30 rows total) and I’m getting close to starting the toe. You can see in the modeled photo that it is nearing the edge of my toe. I have fat, long (2 inch or 5.08 cm) toes so I know that when I get to the bottom of the big toe, I am read to start. This makes me super excited as I am itching to get to my next pair of socks. These are the Smooth Operators by Susan B Anderson.

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Progress…as noted by the progress keeper!

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Almost ready to start the toes!

I’ve been very happy to have such bright projects to help me heal with grief once again. My little brother, Chuck, passed away on 6/10/2017. He was in agony every day from multiple hernias, kidney failure and liver failure due to Hepatitis C. I’m glad he’s no longer in pain. It makes me really sad that everyone I grew up with…my Grandma, Mom, little sister, and now my little brother, are no longer with us.

A week later, my nephew was shot in the stomach and is currently still in ICU. Luckily things are getting better and hopefully he’ll be able to go into a regular room soon. His feeding tube and catheter were taken out today and he’s allowed to eat a liquid diet. He still has a long road of physical therapy; however I believe he will make it through.

The day after that, one of my Meetup Knitting group friends lost her battle with cancer. I’m attending a Celebration of Life for her tonight. Believe it or not, I could go on; however I don’t want this to turn into a pity party. In addition to knitting, I decided to do something bold to help me deal with rampant emotions. It makes me smile every time I catch sight of myself in a mirror.

 

 

 

Have you seen my fellow sock enthusiasts posts lately? Why not hop over to their pages and show some love! And if you want to join us, let one of us know, post on the first Thursday of every month with the title “Once Upon a Sock” and link up! We would be happy to have you!

Until next time, Happy Knitting!

 

Dear Mom – RIP

Dear Mom,

I can’t believe it has been one year since you passed away. I’ve been through all the stages of grief and find myself going back and forth between some of them. It’s gotten a little easier; however, I miss you like crazy. I still cry, but I also laugh when I think about you and remember the good times. I want to call you and tell you about things that are happening in my life. I want to visit you and give you hugs and kisses. I want to knit you scarves and blankets to keep you warm. I know that you are looking down and watching over us. I’m also sure you know all these things; however, it’s so hard not having you here physically.

There have been many first anniversaries during this time. Your first birthday in heaven (I still have your card and present), my annual visit to Indiana for Thanksgiving, the joy of finding or making special Christmas presents for you, ringing in the New Year and making that call every year, the first Mother’s Day without you – oh, that was so very hard, getting a card from you on my birthday…everything. And now it is the first anniversary of you being gone.

I still haven’t been able to watch the video of you that I took where you tell me you love me over and over again. I hope that I’ll be able to soon. Right now, just thinking about it makes me cry. I hope you are happy being with Grandma, Grandpa, your sister and brother who passed before their time, as well as a myriad of other relatives I’m sure you were overjoyed to see again. Maybe you are throwing a little party to celebrate. I like to think you are. I can’t wait to see you again and until then, just know that I love you to the moon and back. Big kisses and hugs!

From 8/10/2014

Around 2:25am, my Mom passed very peacefully and now is in heaven, rejoicing from being no longer in pain. She loved to laugh, tease, and was such a joy in my life, as well as to anyone who met her. Intellectually, I know that she is in a much better place and I am so happy that she is finally at peace. Emotionally, my heart is breaking. My cousin told me that the moment she passed, the skies opened up and poured rain for a few moments. Heaven welcomed another angel today. Sandra Louise Asher Bryant Brandt, 10-19-1950 – 8-10-2014. RIP to the most beautiful woman in the world. You will be missed forever.

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